Who said being a mum was easy?
I am tired of being a mum.
I am tired of being stressed out by the demands of motherhood and the expectations it has placed on my life.
I am tired of feeling unworthy of being a mother because I have failed to meet these expectations.
I am tired of being judged for my parenting choices.
I am tired of having to justify myself to people who don’t even know me.
I am tired of feeling like I don’t matter, because I’m not perfect and I don’t have time to waste on being perfect.
I am tired of being told that I need to worry about the kids instead of myself.
I am tired of doing everything right, and still not getting any praise or acknowledgement.
I am tired of the constant fatigue and exhaustion I feel in my body, mind, and spirit due to being constantly under pressure to meet other people’s expectations.
I am tired of the constant guilt I feel about not being able to provide for my family; or about not being able to be there when they need me most; or about not having enough time for them—or anyone else—because I have so many things going on at once.
I am tired of feeling like I’ll never be able to do enough in this role; that no matter how much sleep I get or how well-rested I feel on any given day, there will always be more work waiting for me tomorrow morning than there is time in the day for me ever to finish it all.
And I’m tired of being a mum who is stressed, unfulfilled, and unworthy of the role she plays in her family. I don’t want my children to grow up with the idea that motherhood is something that you do because you have to—and not because it’s something you love doing.
I want them to know that there is nothing more important than being kind and loving and patient with your kids.
But right now, I feel like I’m failing them every single day. They deserve so much more than this!
About the Author
Kerala J. Esther works as a graphic designer during the day and is a worn-out mother at night. I can’t remember who I was before I became a mother.