What empowering oneself feels like!
Fresh out of my 12th standard, unbeknownst that had slipped into Depression – my life had turned upside down. I was never made for Science but had continued studying it because of societal pressure. I didn’t wish to fail in the eyes of my Parents and Family. I couldn’t realize my life is more precious than anything, I was one of those students who had turned suicidal but nothing was visible to any educational instructor.
When I joined college, it was a field of my interest: Journalism. But my self-esteem was terribly weak and bullies spotted that easily. I became a vulnerable target anyone could laugh at, or call names. I wish I had stood up for myself.
When I joined college, it was a field of my interest: Journalism. But my self-esteem was terribly weak and bullies spotted that easily. I became a vulnerable target anyone could laugh at, or call names. I wish I had stood up for myself. I was shocked by the revelation of Politics and Favouritism among Professors and students. I failed at making genuine friends because there was extreme groupism therein. I don’t even have any words to describe the things I was made to go through.
One afternoon I was returning home, and I was crying throughout the two hours ride on the local train. I had started hating life and I was just 18!
Before long, I found Books. I rejoiced in my love for reading. I remembered how much I loved Writing and Storytelling.
I started blogging and it opened new doors for me. I wrote quotes, poems, short stories and many of them got published in anthologies. I wrote my Debut book “A Life, Less Ordinary” in 2019 and soon it was awarded “Top 100 Debut Novels of India”. My second book “The Search For Belonging” also won multiple awards and even scaled the bestsellers list.
I took the power into my hands as only one person can define your life: You!
My journey might seem Filmy. Well, I laugh too when I look at it in the long run. But through those tough days of struggle, I sought comfort and someone to be there beside me; yet Life taught me a big lesson as to how alone and lonely it can get. And that, you only have yourself! So why not empower yourself?
I still had issues making peace with the past. It’s never easy to just let go when you haven’t received closure, but maturity grew on me. I didn’t wish to dig old graves.
I started believing in Karma. I didn’t wish revenge or any ill feelings. I knew that no action ever goes unnoticed in this universe!
I started un-learning and un-becoming who I wasn’t. I peeled off insecurities and fears away. I didn’t let anyone describe me as ‘weak’. I took the power into my hands as only one person can define your life: You!
On my path to self-development, I even grew my confidence by going out to events to perform my poetry.
Sure, life is a roller-coaster, but in the end, we wouldn’t remember how rough the ride was. All we shall be left with is the good memories. We should work on making sure they’re happy ones.
I wish to tell every woman reading this – to always turn your pain into power
I have started my healing journey. I wish to reclaim all my powers. I wish to find happiness in the present day and little things. I want to learn more about self-love and pass that knowledge to many in need.
I believe once a woman believes in her Feminine strength without wanting competition, that’s when we can grow as a community.
I wish to tell every woman reading this – to always turn your pain into power. On the days you falter, remember the times when you have had immovable strengths… and how you can still redo it all and shine once again.
Achieve your purpose and live to the fullest no matter how many curve balls life throws at you!
Written By Kirti Changlani
